I don't know what's wrong with me i just know. Im alone

Im 17 gender fluid afab.

I've had one boyfriend that lasted a few months and 2 crushes in my life.

I feel so out of place with the whole people thing.

Im fine with never having had sex im to young (in my opinion) for it anyway. But.. Im going to graduate high school and I've never had a first kiss even.

While im scared of "going too far" i crave physical contact a whole lot right now (not even sex just want a boy or a girl to snuggle or kiss me you know).

I don't understand why im at constant war with myself but the physical loneliness is crushing me.

Anyone have advice or can relate?