I've been going thru a lot lately. My cousin died at the beginning of the year (shot himself), my boyfriend and I broke up, and I've gone on a couple of dates with other guys who haven't worked out. I've also gone on several big job interviews and haven't gotten an offer. I'm so sick of my current job. I feel so alone and depressed. I cannot stop thinking about my ex. I am so tempted to give him a call this weekend to hook up with him but I know that at the end, I will have more questions than answers and I'll be more confused. I am so lost and I'm tired of feeling this way. I just want someone to love me this weekend. Even if it's just for an hour or two. I want to go out and be crazy and daring and bold, and not give a rats ass about anything. I haven't been fun in a while, I haven't let loose, and I just need to feel alive again. I don't even have friends.  :'(