feeling really low 😔

Ever since I had my baby -who's now 4 months .. I've been having the worst self esteem. I gained 70-80lbs and I've only lost 30 of that but still feel so big. You can tell in my face, arms, stomach and thighs. I still can't fit into jeans :( every picture I try and take-UGLY 
I'm not fishing for compliments but what can I do to make myself feel better about myself? I try n find motivation to workout but I'm ALWAYS tired and a little depressed. I'm not working, fat, no friends ... and yeah I've already tried anti depressants
Help?Â