I don't think this is a rant or just me saying how I feel but i am 19 years old I have always lived with my dad since I could remember, my mom is in my life but she's not, she has always picked boyfriends over us kids but more me she has always put me behind.... my mom is not with a guy right now but she's with alcohol my mom has turned into a alcoholic and she chooses that over me she has always in my life has pushed me away I for some reason I'm not sure I will never be the perfect daughter in her eyes I will always be a shame and wrong.. for anyone who's got your mom and is close you are super lucky and I just wish I had that Saturday I had to go try on wedding dresses by myself cause she wanted to stay home and drink... I will never have the mom I've always wanted... she has abused me in every way and has always pushed me away 😞 sorry if it doesn't make quite since I'm currently crying so hard to see right now...