What if your spouse changed his mind?

This has become a daily issue in our house, to the point that we're not sleeping in the same room, let alone progressing with the plan to TTC. He's decided that he has other things that he wants to do first, and we need to be financially secure, and save money, and buy a new car, and all these things that sound like excuses. I'll sit, crying endlessly, trying to have a discussion until I get more hurt and angry, and then he doesn't want to talk anymore, so he changes the subject to something he wants. Last night, it was that he wants a tattoo, and while it may not seem important to me, it really is to him because he wants his parent's names on him (they're both still alive-I'm not being heartless) but I just don't understand how it's fair to chastise me about "not saving money for kids" when he wants unnecessary things.

I'm always happy for my friends when they get their happy news, but at the same time, I'm hurting for my self. I feel like having my heart literally ripped out of my chest might hurt less.

I don't know how to do this every day. I don't know how to keep hanging on until he decides that he either still wants to have kids with me, or we've reached an irreconcilable difference.

My heart is breaking, hurting, and I need it to stop.