So I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but I feel like I need to talk to someone, maybe get some advice, I don't know.

I suppose I should start from the beginning. My daughter is 6 weeks old, at 1 week old I developed mastitis and had cracked, bleeding nipples and was in extreme pain so at that time stopping breast feeding seemed like the best choice (I didn't have much support with breastfeeding and it was my first time).

I immediately regretted my decision and after giving her the first bottle I cried and did so for the next week.. I didn't know I could start breastfeeding again until 2 weeks after I had stopped, so 2 weeks after stopping I decided to try her on the breast and she took to it amazingly, since then I have been breastfeeding and topping up with formula but it's been 3 weeks and I just feel like I will never be able to make enough milk to exclusively breastfeed and drop the formula.

It's just so much more exhausting breastfeeding her then making her a bottle and expressing to try to up my supply. I just don't think I'll ever get to exclusively breastfeed and some days I feel like it would be easier to just give her formula but other days when I look into her eyes as she's feeding from me I get this huge rush of love that I don't get with giving her a bottle. The bond it gives us is amazing, the benefits are amazing and I know I'd regret stopping but I'm so exhausted from it all :(

Sorry for just rambling.. I don't know what I hope to achieve, just wanted to write down how I was feeling.