Is it bad the when my boyfriend broke up with me earlier today I didn't feel anything? I meant it when I told him I love you. I think something is wrong with me. I don't feel anything anymore. I don't feel happy, mad, sad, or anything. I just feel empty. I'd rather stay in bed than go be with my family. I have never felt that way, I would always stay down stairs all day in hopes that I'll get to talk to someone. Now I don't even like to get up for food. I don't eat much at all, I fainted the other day because of low blood sugar. I started to starve myself because it kept the thoughts of suicide out, I have gotten really close to acting upon my thoughts. I don't know what to do. I have been verbal to my parents (not completely). I'm waiting to get insurance to talk to a therapist. I've been like this for a while now and I don't understand why I feel this way. Am I depressed? I also can't sleep because I hear and see things and I always get rush of thoughts that cause me to have a panic attack. I put up a charade of happiness so nobody asks if I'm okay, I couldn't handle talking about it. It's going to be a long time until I can see a therapist and idk what to do until then.