I've never been comfortable in my body. Even when I was a size zero and stretch mark free. I'm on my third pregnancy this time with twins. And it has gotten so bad. I'm not used to feeling this bad about my body. With my first two singleton pregnancies I never really cared about the stretch marks and saggy extra skin as I was FINALLY at a healthy weight for my height. I finally had "meat" on my bones. But I'm currently 22w4d pregnant with twins and I feel gross and huge. Which has caught me off guard as I've gained 65 with my first pregnancy & 85 with my second pregnancy. And I've only gained 19 so far with this one. I thought I was prepared for the weight part in this pregnancy since I can't really prepare for anything else! But boy was I wrong. I feel horrible. I avoid mirrors at all cost unless I'm fully clothed. I avoid anything that enhances my bump because I'm sure to hear atleast ten times how huge I've gotten over the last two days of week. I avoid my husband seeing me naked. I didn't realize how bad it has gotten until last night I just broke down after showering. I caught a glimpse of how much my body has changed. Then I thought about how different it was going to be after my daughters come. And since my husband was working overnight I texted him and told him how shitty I was feeling and how I couldn't stop crying. I ended up crying myself to sleep. I woke up this morning to 10+ missed calls from my husband and just as many texts. Then I notice on my bedside table this gift bag and card. I open the bag and it's filled with random things I've said I liked at Walmart or said I wanted. Then I got to the card  and broke down again. I never realized how much my husband actually knows and pays attention to me. I've now noticed that since I started showing my husband has been making it his mission to let me know how much I'm loved and how beautiful he thinks I am. But without thinking I'd shrug it off thinking he just said it because it was what he thought I wanted to hear. Yet again I was so wrong. He truly feels I'm the most beautiful woman he's ever laid eyes on and that is the greatest feeling ever. And I'm feeling better. I know it'll take time to be 100% comfortable in my body after this but with the support of my husband I can't fail and it feels so good to have someone to pick you up when you feel at your worst. I need to remember that I don't always have to put on a brave face for him.