mother in law issues

I said it's prob not the best idea for a newborn with no immune system

To be around a ton of new people in a strange place or to be out in the July heat for the day or he fact that my body will still be recovering..  But this isn't even the best part I have OCD depression and anxiety and stopped taking my meds during pregnancy for my baby and I plan on going back on them when I have him because im already not feeling so great and combined with post partum depression my dr thinks it's better for me not to breast feed and make sure I'm mentally healthy enough to take care of my family.. she spend the entire  Father's Day brunch we were at talking about breast feeding and I finally told her that's prob not happening with me because of my mental issues and she said I lucked at and will be ok because it's summer and I can just go for a walk and it won't be an issue...  biting my tounge is getting harder and i feel the intrusiveness starting already!