I want my virginity back. Just a rant

I lost my virginity to a rapist. In a way,I consented but it's because I was afraid. I cried so hard afterwards. I feel so disgusting and I don't know why I couldn't just push him away. He was just so manipulative and I found out that he's been having sex with a lot of minors. He knew exactly how to get what he wanted. I just feel so nasty. He is messing with girls who are in middle school right now and he's 20. The most frustrating part is that I feel so guilty for not going to the police. I was just so scared of all of that attention. But since I didn't report him, he's doing the same thing to other young girls. I'm strong enough now but I don't have any way to prove that we had sex