My insomnia use to terrify me to a nomadic point of madness, my SO would have to sit up with me until 4/5am when I finally stopped crying and the panic attacks wore off just so I could sleep, I guess after we lost our first baby I didn't get over it and nights have always been hard for me but it's 1:51am I'm pretty much wide awake and I'm not panicking, for once in my life I am not scared to be awake because I'm not alone anymore, i have my little baby in my belly and my SO finally gets the sleep he deserves, he's currently snoring. This baby is saving me in so many ways, everyday I get to be pregnant I am grateful, everyday I feel a little stronger, I can handle a little more. I promise you my rainbow, I will be strong and I will try my hardest everyday to be the best mum I can be, you are the only proof of god I have on this planet. I feel so blessed.  💕