just need to vent a lil💆🏻

Anyways, let me start out and say my baby daddy/boyfriend and I started dating when I was 16 and he was 20. Obvi that's a big difference when you're in highschool and you're boyfriend is almost legally allowed to drink alcohol. And, obviously my parents did not allow it after they found out his age. Me and him would do teenager stuff like drink and smoke weed, sneak around and have sex. He was my rebound boyfriend, I got with him after I was heartbroken blah blah blah I didn't plan on being with him for very long but then I got pregnant after I found out he was hiding things and in a way cheating on me. 

From the beginning I didn't really LOVE him crazy I was just bored. But I did like him, and I felt like I needed him because of the previous relationship I depended on him to be happy. Now I'm pregnant, almost 6 months and we took a month or two break but now we're trying again or atleast I am. Bige surprised him and done cute things for him, to make him happy of course. But I feel like I'm forcing myself to love him or BE in love. He doesn't go out of his way to do anything cute for me even if it's like flowers or what not. Although I don't ask for it or tell him how I feel, isn't it normal to want to make your girlfriend feel special? 

He gets mad at me over social media a lot, I don't post anything to attract boys or go out of my way to make myself look out there you know? He gets mad at everything I do. Maybe it's just the hormones but I'm just so exhausted. He never changes, he still is the same way. Idk what to do I just feel like I'll never love someone or feel that love for him. I know those fairytale relationships aren't real but I'd like something close lol.. I feel like no man will ever love me because I'm 17 with a baby. I love my daughter already more than anything I do not blame her for ANYTHING. I just feel like I'm going throughout this pregnancy alone and I just want to be loved.