Not sure what to do

I had a blow out argument with my SO last night, I said some very hurtful and petty things. At my behest I insisted she delete and block me from social media otherwise I would snoop (I still find my ways unfortunately) when I thought the relationship was over. She said something along if wanted to keep it alive I would wait t for things to calm down and talk. I was so anxious and angry at myself and scared that I thought I was doing right by her and me. Now I have this cold fear in my stomach that I may be locking myself into this when there could be a possibility of being with her. I just don't know what to do, I love her and believe she is my soul mate. Of course in the end it's what she wants but should I try as hard as I can for her or just let her be and see how it goes... I'm so scared of doing wrong.

I know this app is for women and I'm sorry to invade your space. Any feedback is welcome.

Thank you for reading this.