oral sex

My husband gave me oral a few nights ago. And I didn't enjoy it. Like at all. I feel so insecure when he goes down on me because first of all I have a lot of discharge 😖 and I feel like I always have to PEE! Like if I try to relax and enjoy I feel ill pee myself. But he likes doing it because it turns him on 😭. But of course I'm guilty of faking it now 😩. I can't wait to give birth and feel better to have good sex again. Anyone else?