Really you never was solid

A few years back i met these 2 brothers really cool chill dudes. And i had started to mess around with the younger bro because me and him both agreed that we liked each other and had mutual interests in each other however the older brother was the one who really liked me as well and wanted to be with me and i didnt know until recently😐 which had he told me we would of been together but he ended up messing with now my ex friend and than after i moved from my apts and moves on and. Everything years later he was going out of his way from 2013 up until now! Bout how he liked me and wanted ne and wanted to be with me i constantly rejected him because of my history with his lil bro but his response was man that years ago and ya guys werent really official. 😮 True. Buta anyways he didnt care he wanted and to be with me and has told me that he loves me and is in love me and always has and im not gonna lie i was in a very bad relationship with my kids dad prior to him and did want to he loved and out of any guy who ever tried to get at me he was ALWAYS the MAIN GUY who stayed jn touch with me and checked on me and my kids and i was thinking like theres no way this guy is to keep hitting me up after 5 years and come out and confess to me by his feelings and how much he loves me and wants me and to be with me and not give it a try at least so I did go over to his house we hung out for a little bit and I didn't say much just go back to my house because it was getting late and I did not want to just stay at his house chilling plus we did have a lot to catch up on and I wanted to hangout no sex intended and that's exactly what we did we hung out like old times it was the best ever however his presence in my home did make me feel that whatever I thought I was missing or didn't have was there and it was him it was crazy and awkward because all this time it seemed like he was the one he fell into place so easily he'd have a problem helping me build stuff or cleaning up or interacting with my kids I mean all of that to him naturally I'm guessing but at the same time it wasn't like I had to ask him he just was willing to do it the next thing me and him hung out again we did kiss a few times throughout the day calling eachother babe and stuff idk we was acting like we was a couple which didnt bother me because it was better than what i was use to and i was okay with it cause he was okay with it ya know?anyways we had stuff we had to do

So I took him home so he can go handle a couple of things as well I needed to go through some things I ended up going back to pick him up that night we ended up hanging out again eating and watching a movie and yes we did cuddle and everything kept trying to kiss on me and hug on me and feel on me there was a little bit of alcohol involved but not enough to make us completely faded or tipsy so we were still in a right State of mind he was whispering my ear and let me eat your pussy let me feel you I want to feel the inside of you come on let's go into the room no lie at this point we were already kissing and making out at least five minutes and I was turned on as much as he was and I could feel it so I said you had agreed and we went back to the room he gave me head as I did to him as well and it was amazing and then from there we just had sex and we kept going on but during the middle of it when you I want to say when we flipped positions he was on top and went deeper he straight I said OMG you're going to end up pregnant because you feel so bomb i was happy he was happy and i laughed it off by sayin why would you say that babe and his response was because you do and are and i can feel me ready to bust. We continued after that and for once i felt good and not crazy and it was with him or all people after we finished he told me he cummed but i think he did a little in me and on his shirt and on the bed idk but it happened....and now the next day Thursday he was still being sweet and Everything he had ro peace cause he had a flight to take to orgeon for work for 6 mons.he said he was gonna miss me like crazy and we kissed and he told me ro call him when i get back in. After that between yesterday and thursday we kinda talked about everything but. He switched up cause how hes saying that he wish we didnt do none of that stuff because he didnt want to loose me as. A friend(which is what i was saying from jumpbut went against it) and than he tried to use the whole i dont want anymore kids thing but he had one kid as i have 2 and but he was fuckin on me like he wanted me gonna be his baby 😒 and now he sayin that he doesnt wanna loose what we had but he feels that we should just be "bro & sis" like how tf we go back to that!! Smh the story is way deep but im not gonna lie im hurt asf because basically i thought he was different and hes not he played me but i have asked other people and they saying just stay friends see where it goes and now im thinking what it i end up pregnant behind this mess smh what do i do what does this all mean???