Whats wrong with me

After being married 10 years my husband abandoned my children and i leaving us with no money no food and no information. Im epileptic. So stress is my trigger. Now after a year and 8 months i have been talking to a wonderful guy for about 6.5 months and i am catching feelings but im necoming very emotional when he doesnt answer or says hes going to call me back. I actually find myself crying sometime. He said he loves me rescently and im afraid to say it back. Hes a great guy and i dont know what to do