Rough patch.

Ladies I need help. Me and my bf are going through a rough patch right now. And I know he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. And he is going through a depression. He is 28 years old and lost his job. Pretty much we were suppose to move to SC with my family until we found out my sister changed her mind and said she was going (long story short they use to date back in high school) I know sounds messed up but love finds its way. And pretty much my parents are okay with us being together as long as I'm happy. (They accepted they can't do anything to change my mind/heart) and now he is moving to IL to get his old job back (another long story) because we just moved from Washington to Idaho to start fresh. Little did we know this is a racist ass state who doesn't like a black guy who can make some fucking coffee. Well anyways I'm happy he is able to get his job back and save and fix his life. I willing to uproot again and leave this shit dirt place. I have family here and I am even willing to leave. They don't even pay attention to me anyways. My own brother doesn't even hang out with me. Well now he is saying all this stuff about oh you should find a guy who wants to marry you and have kids and blah blah blah.... well I don't want children and I don't want to get married... again... (18-21 then divorced that douch hat) I am trying anything and everything to tell him and show that this is suppose to be. He wouldn't have waited for me for 8 years if it wasn't. In his own way he shows his love for me. Idk what to do. I've been stressing about it and I took a shower and cried the entire time. Thinking what life would be like without him. And all I see is heartbreak and never being sober again a day in my life. We have been together for 4 years this august. (We both don't know the date....) I just need some advice on what I can do. I can't lose this man he means the world to me.