So I have a best friend of 4-5 years now (we'll call her "E"). This past year has really brought out our differences in a lot of situations and it's to the point I'm not sure the friendship is even really there. Her birthday was last June, and I had just gotten my car back from the shop from a hydro-plane accident on my 18th birthday in May, so my parents had me on restriction with driving my car. I was really only allowed to drive it to work, and that was still tough, because at times my parents would tell me they would just drop me off. I ended up arguing for at least an hour with my parents to drive 30 minutes away to go to this friend's birthday party. Believe me, that was an uphill battle.

So I go out of my way to make sure that I can go to her birthday and saved whatever I could from my pay checks to get her a birthday gift. I ended up saving $40 and bought her things I know she would appreciate because I was thinking of what she needed (she has horrible insomnia and stress, so I bought her aroma therapy bubble bath and body lotion).

The day of her birthday, as she was opening gifts, she opened mine last. She wasn't even going to open it until her mother coaxed her into it. She didn't even say thank you and didn't seem enthused about it. She just opened it and set it aside. That really...really...really hit me wrong and hurt my feelings.

Then my next best friend (we'll call her "S") had a birthday coming up. I couldn't do anything special for her the day of her birthday, because I was attending court to get my name changed. I had been waiting months to do it, and my friends knew how important that was too me. E had apparently made plans for S on her birthday and didn't tell me anything about it until two days before. How was I supposed to react? I couldn't even say, "Could we wait until another day, I have court that day. That way we can all do something together?"

I ended up just saying okay. They posted pictures on social media and I felt left out. Here I am, supposed to be celebrating the fact that I have opened a new chapter in my life by changing my name from my biological father's last name, and they didn't even bother to text me at all that day.

I ended up unfriending E on Facebook and Instagram because I didn't want to see it. I suppose she noticed, because she had her mom start texting me and telling me how depressed E is. It's like it doesn't matter how they made me feel at all.

Sorry, that was long. It's just that at this point, I don't even really have any friends. If I spoke to S about it, she would pretty much pick E's side. I guess you could say I'm the third wheel.