So many people talk about their birth stories and people always comment well at least you have a healthy baby now. I wish my child was healthy , I wish all the complications I had didn't add onto this post Partem depression that I just can't seem to shake. I want to be happy but it is so hard. My child has been so sickly but no one see that when they look at him bc he smiles. No one had to watch him stop breathing and turn blue. I have never felt more helpless. Everytime my sweet boy gets just a little sick he has so many problems bc he just can't breathe but people always talk about how healthy he is. I wish they could spend a day in my shoes to see how hard it is just so he can breathe, hook up all his equipment, give him all his meds, and cry when he still has trouble. I hold him close everytime we are in the hospital bc I am so afraid I may not get to take him home. But go ahead and tell me that bc my child weighs a good amount he must be healthy.