My first pregnancy and most likely my last. I've been in the hospital for more than a month, and I feel like emotionally I cannot do another month. My husband is in Iraq, I barely get visitors, the food sucks, the hospital cot is almost unbearable, I'm getting blood drawn, finger pricks daily. I haven't been outside this hospital in a month, I haven't felt the sunshine, breathed fresh air this is no way for a human to live. I feel like I'm in prison. I cry sometimes for no reason I'm so lonely. I know I'm here so my son will be born healthy, but couldn't I be on bedrest at home, I see so many other moms do it. I'm not being selfish I love my son, and I want the best for him, but I'm really struggling mentally.