Truth is....

The truth is, pregnancy is hard. Especially for fuck ups like me. How can I raise a baby when I can't even feed myself? How am I supposed to do this? I feel like all I can do is watch the ones I love suffer just because I can't let my baby go. I can't lose him, he's all the goodness and purity that was left in me. Without him I wouldn't hold on. I don't know what to do.