But I don't wanna...

I've been smoking with my hubby who introduced me to weed for about 2 years now. Almost everyday, multiple times a day. Now however, he's trying to work and wants to stop so he can pass drug testing. Me on the other hand, I have no reason to stop other than the fact that it's kinda pricey sometimes. I'm a disabled vet, a stay at home mom and I go to online school so smoking just eases my mind and boredom most of the time. I feel like if I stop im just gonna stop for good but I don't even really wanna stop. Anyone else have feelings like this?