how do i get anxiety meds????

i neeed them because i been getting anxiety a lot lately ', and also i can't sleep at night at all either im nervous to go to the doctor again ,, i haven't been on any anxiety meds since 7 years ago.... i was on them in freshman year and then ditched them because i knew it was all in my head BUT NOW IM 23 and i been getting anxiety back. and it's coming strong and ugly !!!