Depression

My heart is heavy...sometimes feels like I can't breathe. I know that nothing I say on here can be fixed by anyone on here. But i just feel like I need to say something to somebody. 6 months ago I lost my baby. I lost the dream I've always wanted. While being pregnant, I planned the hell out of my next five years. To prepare myself. Whether the baby's father would be supportive or not. I saw such an amazing joyous future. And with one phone call...it was completely shattered. My dream was now my nightmare. The baby's heart stopped beating within me. For two weeks remains and clots the size of my fist were being released. I was afraid to even pee. Till this day I am still bleeding. I hoped that someone would understand and want to be supportive through such a difficult traumatic time. But I can't seem to find anyone who understands. Therapy is too expensive for me to go to...I feel so alone. I wish I could see my baby's face and know everything is going to be okay...