When you love story goes wrong πŸ˜’

When I got with my SO #1 he was everything I hoped for and could imagine but 3 months into the relationship I found out the truth about the man I was in love with.....we been together #8 months...and let's just say each month it's been a different female and a different situation....knowing I should of been left I stayed cause inspite of it all HES a good MAN..we have our ups and downs...lost 2 babies it's been tough for us..but lately I fell into the arms of someone else...and I have been cheating and I may be prengant and in love with #2 menπŸ˜’πŸ˜” the scary thing is ...they don't know about each other...I live with my boyfriend and my MYSTERY GUY thinks in away working...and I see him every weekend when I return back home to New York...now before you guys judge me please understand that I honestly do love them both πŸ˜’ my boyfriend makes it hard for me to trust him and my mystery feel the void that's missing... I'm just lost cause I know when it does hit the fan IM GONNA LOOSE THEM BOTHπŸ˜”πŸ˜’