confused

what do u do wen ur heart is with two ppl one has a low sperm count the other has a high sperm count I had sex with both now I feel shitty I just wanted one more BBY before I'm 30 how wrong am I one is the father of my kids the one man is my husband but I fell for my husband cus he reminded me of the father of my kids 100% am I wrong to be madly in love with one man but coped with the other one in his place cus he reminded me of his face any comments will help with my twisted mind ....