So I'm usually like clock work, Day 25..no later than day 26, and here comes Aunt Flo. Making me cry once again cause I'm not pregnant when I so long to be. Day 26 came and went, Day 27 came and went, Day 28 came and went, Day 29 came and went. In these days I took 3 Clearblue and 3 First Response test. The first one was on Day 24. Yea I'm one of those women. A clearblue. And I just convenienced myself it wasn't accurate enough. Then one on the evening of Day 27. One on the evening of Day 28. That's when it happened. I got the faintest line possible. I thought I was crazy. I showed my best friend a pic. I praised the Lord, I examined it 100 times, and then tried to get some sleep. My husband was at work. He came home at 11am and I didn't tell him, I wanted to test again in the morning to make sure. I didn't sleep a wink.

At 3am I woke up and used the last two test I had. Both negative. Then I broke down. I ask him to look at it and he saw a faint line too. So I called my OBGYN and ask for a blood test. I wanted to know. I was tested for progesterone and it was 7.82 so I got afraid I'd miscarry if I didn't find out and get on progesterone supplements. Thanks to internet, that's how I found all this out.

I went to test and went to work. The testing machine was down so I didn't get my answer as soon as I'd hoped. I was so nervous. Then I went to bathroom and there she was. Aunt Flo. I cried and cried and was totally devastated. 4 days late and on Day 30, my dreams of being a mom were shot down.

So now I've swore off pregnancy test until Aunt Flo is two weeks late and I now believe in false positives, which I never did before. I know many don't and I was shocked for it to happen to me.

I haven't really talked about it but I know if anyone understands how I feel, it's the girls here. Was a sad day, couple of days, but I know God has plans for me and my husband. This month just wasn't the month.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." - Jeremiah 29:11