Every month I pray that this is the month...that AF won't show up. But when you know you're body so well after months and months of charting, taking temperatures etc....and the signs are there and the signs you so badly want to see are also not there, you starting preparing yourself for the heartbreak that is coming. Will AF flow come in the morning when I wake up? Or will she come when I'm sitting on the crappy weekly ops meeting? All you can do is tell yourself is you both will try harder next month. To stay positive. To be kind to yourself and allow yourself to be sad. B just hard. Month of month. I hate this.