Moody....(Rant)

Rachel

I'm 12w3d and up until now, I've been doing pretty well in terms of keeping my emotions in check. Today, I feel like I could kick a puppy (I wouldn't, but you know what I mean). It all started this past weekend when I had to take my husband to the ER because of pain in his abdomen, for what we initially thought could be his appendix. Turns out it isn't his appendix, but he has to go in for more tests next week to find out what the problem is. And because he has to rest and take it easy, I'm pulling double-duty around the house. We have a big house project that needs to be finished this week and now he is sidelined and I cannot do it myself. What made it worse is that his mother was in town over the weekend and she and her sister keep bothering us (a few times a day) about keeping a close eye on his health and subtly accusing me of not being concerned enough. So I'm tired and stressed, worrying about hubby's health and dealing with in-laws. Today I was looking forward to finally making the big announcement that we are expecting to all of our friends and extended family. Hubby wanted to wait until all of the immediate family knew first, which I understand. The last person to know is his brother, and we sent him a gift that tells him he is going to be an uncle. He received the gift in the mail two days ago but it is still sitting on the table, unopened. "I open my mail whenever I think to" was what he said last night when hubby inquired as to whether he opened the package. I want to announce, and husband is insisting to wait on his brother, who isn't opening his gift. So I'm pissed. I need something to bring my emotions up but we're stuck waiting on his lazy brother. Today I just feel overwhelmed and emotional. I keep telling myself that this is pregnancy hormones and I'm being a brat. That this is no big deal and I should calm down. But I feel like I could burst into tears at any moment while at work. I'd consider taking a mental health day and go home to rest but I need to save my PTO for when baby arrives since I do not get maternity leave. I'm hoping that by getting this all written out will help me calm down and stop being ridiculous. Has anybody else's emotions been a rollercoaster? Thanks for letting me rant.