so...i like attention from guys. it's kind of unhealthy and I end up talking dirty to them or sending pictures to get attention. they control my mood with how much attention and I'm very much aware that this is the only way I can get their attention after a while. I've known for a while I need to stop but when i get upset at a guy and move on to another guy I can get to pay attention to me. I decided a few days ago I was going to stop. I have been going for a few days and I feel better already. I need to learn to be happy on my own and not rely on someone else to keep me happy because they will fail everytime. I'm proud of my small accomplishment and I wanted to share it with all of you. not that this should need to be said but I really dont need your judgement or hate so if that's all you have to say your comments will either be flagged or deleted so don't bother posting them.