The last month has been rough on my so and I financial issues etc so we decided to have a talk. I'm 11weeks 2 days today and a couple weeks ago he went over a list of things. I wasn't allowed to have input on them until the absolute end of his conversation and even then it didn't seem to go through.  It was talks about budget, life, how messy the house was and how unexacptable he found it to be. Even after I had told him time and time again morning sickness was to bad I could barely get what I HAD to do in the day like feed my 5 year old and make sure she's happy etc through the day and doing her school work book.  After saying we couldn't even get our vacuum payed off (I haven't had a vacuum in 4 months been dealing with borrowing one) I overhear his discussion with a buddy about getting some green and going out drinking on his birthday. On him.  After all this budget this and that he goes and blows money and then expects to make me feel better by spending money on me after saying IM the on causing financial issues because I don't currently have a job not have I beenable to come by one recently. I seriously don't trust him.  It's my fault if the budget is broken because he's overspending.  Only thing I've asked for was a vacuum.  That's seriously it. I'm one of the most unmaterialistic people I know of and it just pissed me off beyond all reason that it's all aparently my fault. Am I suppose tog forgive all this? Forgive being called a burden and being blamed? The other day I was 45 min away helping my mom move boxes, she sprang her ankle stepping off a u haul, and he told me he wouldn't come help after I asked him to because "he didn't want to and didn't see helping me move as his responsibility until we move somewhere together" that was honestly my last straw and I don't know. I seriously don't. He tries to cuddle etc but I can't do it back. It just feels awkward now. I need some advise on how to handle this all. I'm naturally an emotional person, emotional sign cancer, I have a history of anxiety and depression and am trying to find comfort. Last night he called me rude because I don't really want him to sleep in the same bed as me. But can't come to say it outright. Am I in the wrong? I'm just so lost in what to do right now any advise would be awesome and loved.