No judgement please.

So recently I met this guy who is so so sweet & I tried not to like him & keep it friendly but I ended up really liking him. We met at a gym while he was in town ( he came up and asked a silly question bc he just wanted to talk to me he said ) super cute🤗 He recently moved back home & he wants me to come visit Monday-Wednesday. I really want to but at the same time idk if I should bc I have a bad situation at home. My ex is controlling & Extremely abusive. No one knows how bad it is & I don’t feel like it’s something I should involve him in it but it kills me to keep it from him. I want a serious future with this guy. I’ve fallen so hard for him & he’s amazing. I don't wanna hurt him I would just like advice on how to handle this situation I put myself in bc I don't wanna miss up a great guy but im embarrassed I hate it. I hate that im still allowing this to happen bc I really don’t know what to do. I try & it gets worse. His dad is a really strong guy in the police & court system & so me calling only makes it worse & I get in trouble. Im so terrified. I cry every night bc I just want to be with chris. I feel safe. I haven’t felt that in so long. I just don’t know anymore bc how is he going to understand something this fucked up. I’m going to lose him & I don’t want that. 😢