feeling... not so pretty...

I just wanna be sexier... I'm so awkward and goofy... and my new boyfriend is like fine as shit! he's like those fine specimens that post pics wearing grey sweatpants with that heavenly print in them sexy and I'm not ugly just a little regular and l want my cute to match his... I wanna be just as sexy for me of course but for him too like I need a glow-over! lol is it weird that I feel like this?