sad, suicidal.

ik this is a period app but i feel depressed all i do is sometimes draw art and i barley eat cuz i feel like idk theres nothing to eat i feel like im screaming for help and nobody can hear me and everyone thinks im ok ive been distant lately and my mom just feels like shes not paying attention to me i feel suicidal i mean i dont kno what to do im 11 years old and i feel empty my moms always with her boyfriend all summer i havent had any fun my grandparents feel like they're just overprotective and if they weren't that way i guess i wouldnt b like this like its their fault all they do is keep me locked up and if they're not that way i wouldnt feel so emotional and suicidal they wont let me go into other ppls houses not even if they knew them only because they think im going to into my mom or my brother they do drugs and he skips class and my mom dropped out of highschool they still treat me like a kid and they think im like my brother but im not him