Deep depression and stuck

I have fallin into a very deep depression I find myself crying while I clean during the day, I cry myself to sleep at night. I don't find anything funny. I am pushing people I love far from me. I am ruining my relationship. I am a mom and I'm not supposed to be this way to be the fiancé and mother I need to be.

Counseling doesn't do much for me. Working out used to be my outlet and isn't working I'm stuck in this funk. I feel like I'm drowning and can't see the sunlight.

Anyone have suggestions? I've tried depression pills but they made me feel like a zombie. Any home remedies would be appreciated