I miss him so much I want to cry. I'm so hurt.

I miss my bf.. well ex. So much. I met him. We dated over the summer and I fell for him so bad. Even told him I loved him. He's the only guy who has treated me right and he met me at my lowest. He built my self-esteem. I cried when he left, after he left, at work, and I'm trying not to cry rn, just everything reminds me of him. Being in the living room with him just hanging out, just everything. Tv shows and all. It's just so hard. He stays 4 hours away for college. I even told him I would drive to see him this weekend. I really want to. My heart is so broken and I don't know what to do. Talking to him hurts but not talking hurts even more. Wondering what he's doing and all. I'm so bored because he use to come over every night for the past 3 months to see me. 💔💔

I'm trying not to cry but will that help.