Just need to vent

Over a year ago, I got pregnant without trying. I was so excited and wanted to keep the baby. Found out that my SO had been lying to me about how far along he was with his divorce. He's been separated for 8 years but dragging his feet with pulling the trigger. He told me his kids would never forgive him and he wanted to move forward with me. I agreed to go through with the abortion pill at 5weeks. I love him and wanted a real life and happy start and thought this was my best chance. I spent 8 hours alone on the bathroom floor with stuff coming out both ends, hyperventilating and crying in pain. I had pain meds but couldn't keep them down. I figured that was my punishment.

Now he has bought a ring, divorce Is days from final and we have started trying again. I love him as much as the first day I met him, but it's been 3 months now of ttc and nothing. I know it's early but I'm starting to worry that maybe I'm being punished for the abortion. Has anyone gotten pregnant after the pill? I want a baby more than anything. Just need some hope.