She's pregnant before me.

My husband's cousin and his wife are very close to us in age and life stage (We got married a year before). She and I are very similar and our families are so close we tried to plan to have babies around the same time so we could have someone to hang out with while we're on Mat leave. I was pregnant back in march and lost it and she was super supportive and kind and lovely during it, but now she's 12 weeks and announcing to everyone and I'm not doing well. We haven't been able to conceive since and they started trying after us. I'm trying to be happy for her, but I'm just mad and hurt. I know I need to suck it up and it will happen for me when it does. I'm happy for her really, but it hurts a lot right now. I'm wishing you all baby dust and love!