Painful sex??

I know I'm young, but me and him have both decided we want to start having sex and we want to be safe about it, my mother made me a birth control appointment for soon.

What she didn't know is that me and him have tried to have sex many times (and she won't ever know), and basically it usually ends in failure.

We do a lot of foreplay. Since sex hurts, we've kinda mastered doing other things to eachother.

I'm always wet enough. My friends just tell me I am not wet enough. But that really isn't the problem.

Sometimes, I'm scared someone will catch us. Even when my mom and sister are at work, I'm scared her boyfriend will just walk in, or my brothers or one of my moms friends who stops by a few times a year but just walks in. They have all been given permission to come in, but if the doors locked they will either climb in the window or throw rocks at my window or call me until I answer, especially since everyone knows when I'm home. If I go up to my room then I'd have to worry about them finding out my boyfriends there, then they might stay until my mom comes home and that wouldnt be good.

But even the times when I know for absolutely sure, or I'm at least sure of where most those people are, and I actually calm down enough to have him in my room to do stuff, and I actually get into it, but as soon as the penis goes in it's pain. Sometimes we try it for a while, and we kiss and stuff or I touch down there, it still hurts too bad to do anything. And I think I'm allergic to latex because when we have tried protcction, it's a burning feeling which is different from what the pain normally is.

I'll bring it up at the BC appointment but this is so frustrating, over a year of trying and only about 3 successful attempts 😔