Feeling lost

I did a medical induced abortion on August 10th It was the worst experience. I've cried and cried and the tears keep falling on their own. I am trying to stay strong around my 10yr old son but he keeps asking if I'm ok or if I'm going to be sick again( since he came home early from his friends house while I was in the process and saw me sick with a fever and chills)

Deep down inside I wanted to keep the baby but my man and I both agreed it's too soon we hardly know each other and can't afford it right now. I am now feeling lost and empty. I've prayed and asked God to forgive me and I know HE has and His love is always there and never leaves but how I can stop feeling terrible? I feel like a murderer, so numb and cold.

Is it bad to say that I want to get pregnant again just to feel happy and complete again? I've wanted another child for years and I feel like I'm ready; i knew I should've ran out of the clinic before they gave me that pill. 😔💔