So when I was 15 I met a guy online. Let's call him nick. When I first met him, I became his gf even though he lived 10 hours from me. I loved him. He broke up with me 7 months later. Knowing how close we were though, we tried remaining friends. After 3 months, we decided I was like a daughter to him, and he would call me his little one. I called him daddy. We loved each other, he would guide me through life, make sure I was always happy and taken care of, and in return I adored him and looked to him first before making any big decisions or if I was down he would be the first person I would go to for advice/cheering up. We had phone sex a lot, and we would sext like 2xs a week, mostly him though. Between the ages of 17-19 we had a few fall outs where we wouldn't talk for months but then we would miss each other and fall right back into place. When I was 20, I had a new bf (now my husband) and I told nick we needed to stop talking for real. Haven't spoken with him since, but he did message me on fb the week of my wedding saying "is this the last time we ever will talk?" But at that point it had been about 1.5 years since I told him to stop talking to me. I didn't know until recently that what we had would be considered a DDLG relationship, I thought it was just our special thing. Now- I always knew I was a sub, and have been telling my husband that for 3 years. He's not interested in a dom/sub relationship. Sex is still great, but I like being a sub. Now. Here's the thing. I wish I had a daddy again, but I only want nick to be my daddy. I wouldn't do anything sexual or even talk sexual with him, but I miss him a ton. Feels like a part of my heart will always miss being his little girl. 😢 i just needed to tell someone, since no one else in my life can ever know.