Ramble

It is going to be a brutal next two weeks! My first appointment isn't until 9/5. I suffered a missed miscarriage in March. That was hard because it went to 10 weeks with no indication besides a decline in symptoms. I'm hyper aware of every symptom. No blood, no horrible cramps (minor cramps and aches). Most notably on my left pelvis area (I only have one tube/ovary due to an ectopic and my right was removed)

I'm just anxious to see the doctor and hopeful to hear a heartbeat. I would rather experience the symptoms than be clueless. I try to avoid discussions because it makes me more nervous to get to my appointment. Will I hear a heartbeat? Will everything be okay? Are my HCG levels rising like the should? I never worried about this when I was pregnant with my daughters. I've been rattled since my ectopic and my miscarriage.