I was dating my daughters father for one year before I got pregnant. He was in the process of a divorce (which I wasn't aware of until a few months in) and I was fresh out of a looooong term relationship with my first child's father for 12 years. I think the only thing we had in common were our break ups and he was a breath of fresh air. Once I told him I was pregnant, he made it clear he did not want a baby in any shape or form. When I told him I would not abort my baby, he blocked my phone number and I haven't spoken to him since. I don't know why I fee bad for applying for child support. I know the baby deserves the best life and that it's his responsibility too. However, he was clear he didn't want this. It was 100% my choice having the baby and knowing I was doing not against his wishes. Am I supposed to suck it up and just do it on my own? Since I made this decision knowing he didn't want this? The other let of me knows I'm crazy for thinking this way. He should have been more careful if he didn't want a child. He has an older child from his marriage that he takes great care of. What makes that child's life more valuable than mine? Why does his son deserve a father and not my daughter? You can only love one child based on who's vagina the child came out of? I'm so torn! I never met his family. That's the other thing. Do I reach out to them and allow my child to meet her family? Or do I just let it ride out.

Sincerely,

torn mommy