I just don't know how I feel any more 😢

I just found out last Friday I'm having a 3rd boy I was wishing for a girl and now I just feel so depressed and sad 😭 I can't not help it I pretty much cry everyday specialty in the morning it's not the I want to feel these way I pray to god so much for a girl the I just feel so miserable now and I really don't know how I'm gonna be feeling wen I get my tubes tided there's no way I'm gonna have 4 kids life it's so hard these days and everything it's so expensive that's not even a possibility !!oh well maybe next time!! There's not gonna be next time for me I just pray to god to help me get the strength the I need to deal with he's willing 😢🙏🏻