As if it couldn't get worse

I'm 17 (turning 18 in two months) and I am the Mommy of a two year old little boy. For the past few months I have had bad baby fever, like I save every baby name I find cute, I've had dreams about having another little boy, which is what I want, the whole nine yards. Before someone bashes me NO I don't plan on having another child until I'm in a better place financially and until I meet the right man, and my son is at lest 6 or 7.😂 I don't think it hurts to keep thinking about it one day, because it makes me so happy to think about one day having another little one. Anyways my ex, child's father, is a complete deadbeat towards our son, hasn't seen him in months, hasn't contacted me in weeks. He just recently had another child with his new girlfriend and they were both and are still both trying to keep it quiet because he doesn't even want anybody to know. I can't help but feel so sad, like I would absolutely love to have another baby right now but I know that I can't, and he can just keep having them like it's nothing.. it bothers me so much because unlike him I actually want another baby. He didn't..😔

**I know I'm too young that's why I specifically said I don't plan on actually having another child until WAY later on. It's normal to have baby fever without actually acting on it and believe me I don't even have sex or anything like that anymore because I don't want another child right now and I don't even want to chance having another one right now. And I'm not even in another relationship simply because for now I'm focusing on college, my son, and making our lives better. Yes I'd love to have another baby more than anything but I know in the end it will definitely be worth waiting for.❤️