Depressed😓

I feel empty inside. I feel like I don't have a future. I feel like even if I tried to make I better I would fail, because I am terrible at everything. I feel my heart broken every single day, I feel stupid, I feel naive.. I don't wanna leave my bed, ever. Nothing makes me even feel anymore. I have no interest in school or sex, I like to eat but afterwards I feel terribly guilty every time. I wanna puke and scream at the same time. I feel like I can't do this anymore, what is even the point.. I don't wanna die, but why am I even living? Sometimes I feel like there isn't even a reason and I am unable to bind a reason. I cry over everything, I feel my chest shatter anytime anyone hurts my feelings, my boyfriend screams at me cause I'm a baby.. but I don't know what else to do. If things don't get better, they haven't, then what is even the point? I have no fiends, my family hates me, and majority of the time my boyfriend does too.. and he is all I have.. I don't know.