Tonight is becoming a dark night. I want to go home. Home to the Oregon that I have grown to love. I have made friends that I care about deeply and even a boy I have fallen head over heals for. I miss them all. I miss my bed. I even miss the roads I drive on to go to school or church. Don't get me wrong. I love Alaska but I don't have anything keeping me here. I have friends but nothing permanent. Oregon is permanent and I need to go back. Ten more days I guess till I get to go back but I feels like eternity. But I don't want to leave my dad alone. I'm going to miss him. I just wish life could be simple again. I wish that my mom and dad and my dog and I could just all go home together instead of just me, my mom and clover coming then my dad

coming home later. I wish I could love freely and that I could be accepted and not critiqued for who I like... who I love. Why can't life be simple again.