Have any of you ever had a girl crush but you were straight?

Like a serious crush?

see, I'm straight but I've always seen women in a different way than most straight women do. I often watch lesbian porn and

I've had my share of girl crushes but the one I have now is a little more serious.

I don't even think she's a lesbian but I'm just so attracted to her. I see her and I start smiling.

how can this be? what do I do? I don't know her that well but I would like to. I've never even kissed a girl...

advice anyone? 😖😭