Boys :(

I'm 12. I know I know why would I need a boy. But I've been close to this boy for a year. And he makes me so happy. We dated for 9 months just being amazing together as we had so much fun together. My parents then didn't want me to have a boyfriend... so I had to break up with him. We try to talk but it's awkward because we were so used to being bf and gf that it was hard to just be friends. My friends don't care anymore and want the both of us to move on but it's hard 😕 I try. I've tried to see if my best friend will make me just as happy but she doesn't. Any of my best friend doesn't so I tried to see if there were any boys that would be interested just to make me happy. No one really. That kind of broke my heart but Ive got got loads of great friends boys and girls trying to make me happy but it isn't enough... I sound like I'm not happy but I am so grateful for all of them. Most of my friends who has the relationship me and my ex used to have where they would just smile laughing together. I feel like i'm not good enough for anyone... ☹️