Unhappy with everything ...

I'm 21, married for 2.5 years and have a baby girl whose 1. I'm currently 26 weeks with our 2nd.

No one understands how unhappy I am in my marriage.

I don't know why my husband sneaks behind my back and is so desperate to talk to other females . Making multiple social media accounts, sending pics and receiving pics, sex chats, etc. I do everything for him.

And he doesn't know how hurt I feel when I find out he's STILL doing this shit. He doesn't know how it feels to have another female message you and show you what your husband has been saying to them.

On top of that, he's not even a good father.

I would've expected him to be at least a good dad. He doesn't care if his 1 year old is sick, if she ever has to go to the doctor or hospital he expects me to go , all alone no matter if it's 2am . No matter how awful I'm feeling. He smokes in the apartment, which is tiny. And always orders me to take her in the room every 5 mins so he can lay there and smoke.

I honestly don't know what to do. Y'all would say leave him, but tall don't understand my situation , I'm a Muslim women, and I'm not ready for all the taunting and problems I will get if I ever decide to leave him. So I guess I'm gonna be unhappy for the rest of my life 😐